YEC Camp 2013 #latepost

I've never been to a camp before. Well , the camp at school wasn't really counted since campers did not need to stay for a night. I swear , I've never been to an actual camp before.

Wait , I've just been to YEC Camp at Inti International University on 17th this month. It's almost like an actual camp , if you actually count the more comfortable accomodation in. My two other friends were supposed to take part in the camp with me but they had another camp , so Yen Shin was my only close friend there.

On the first day itself , the atmosphere was kind of awkward. I saw people from different walks of life crowding the campus. There were students from my state and also from other states. Trust me , I did not spot any hot guys among the campers.

Moving on....

Each camper was given a name tag with a number on it. I got the number 12 , which could possibly mean that I'm in Group 12. Students from my state just arrived on day one itself so we didn't have hostel rooms ready for us yet , unlike students from far places who arrived the day before. All the campers assembled at the multi-purpose hall and everyone sort of formed a human fence to welcome campers who walked in late. After that , we were required to look for our group members and camp facilitator.

When my eyes first fell on him , I...

OMFG MY CAMP FACILITATOR MUST BE A SURPRISE. HE IS SO HOT. Exaggerated much? I mean it , he's hot. And one by one , my team members-to-be joined in the fun. Ice-breaking session. My camp faci said it was his first time becoming faci so I guess it was okay for him to be awkward. He literally asked us to 'ladali' (something like rock scissors paper) to elect a group leader among us. I find it a little....ahhh never mind.

IWANNABETHEGROUPLEADERBUTNVMFORGETITLUCKWASNOTBYMYSIDE.

In the end , there's this nerdy cute guy , Leon who was elected as our group leader.

YEAHWHATEVERI'MOKAYWITHITOMGCONSCIENCECANYOUSHUTUP?

All my group members are Chinese except for Daniel , the lonesome Indian. *racist* I realised that my group members aren't good in English , including my camp faci. It's like they just translated what they wanted to say from Chinese to English directly. I'm not trying to be prejudice but it kinda surprised me. I thought the campers from far are proficient in English .____.
Group name? Iron Deuce. The organizers kinda set up names for the groups and we had to choose one from the list. I don't think Iron Deuce meant anything but it sounded kinda cool. We introduced ourselves to one another , and it's kinda amazing how I could remember their names fast. No joke , I'm serious. I kinda think that my camp faci's name is a little old-fashioned ? Hahaha.

Next , we had to paint our own emblem with some paint and our very own fingers ! Epic much haha.
I sort of suggested something like a shield with cool swords just like in Merlin. Sort of...Well , they pretty much agreed with my idea so I guess my team members were being cooperative. Each one of us had to paint the emblem with our own fingers and we managed to get it done on time. As for the cheer , I blurted out some of my ideas again and we finally agreed to do something like in Running Man.

"Iron Man? NO! Iron Lady? NO! Iron! Deuce! Cross !! "

LOL I find it funny.

Moving on....

We had to play 20 station games in the next 5 hours. 5 freaking hours in such an unfavorable weather. The first station , blow the ping-pong ball to the cup. It was always an almost. We kept missing it. Yeah we lost at the station. Whatever that game ain't really fun anyway. We played passing water with a cup in each of our mouths , passing water balloons to the back , constructing a tower out of cards , arrange ourselves while being blindfolded, blind bowling , observing objects , pulling papers off stacked-up cups , commanding blindfolded people , holding up a bucket of water with legs , overflipping a piece of newspaper, reading tongue twisters , touching disgusting stuffs kept in concealed boxes , sucking up weird water with the same straw , untying dead knots , making a jump rope out of rubber bands , protecting the 'model' while getting wet at the pool , completing puzzles, giving instructions to blind people and ....there's one more game which I forgot. The poolside station was the last station for my group so my members and I had to gather at the sports hall looking like wet chickens. Those who played at the pool earlier were all dried up except for my group which was drenched from head to toe.

There was a Gala Night held for the campers so we were given some time to clean up and get ourselves dressed. Yen Shin and I got ourselves a room for two on the second floor in a block at the very back of the campus. We had to walk , no , drag ourselves there. It was kinda creepy because only four campers were situated there , including me , Yen Shin , and two females. There were students residing there but it looked like it's empty. The balconies , well , were kind of dead silent. The bathroom was clean and dry but still , it was silent. Freaked me out a little. I kept forgetting about the keys to our room and actually left it attached to the door knob. =.= After getting ourselves ready , we walked miles to the hall. Thank goodness I didn't wear heels. The hall was decorated with balloons and streamers and also people dressed up like they're getting married. No kidding , some wore 5-inches killer heels whereas some dressed up like whores. I'm not trying to be mean but some of them do look like one...The food ? Some briyani rice with fish , chicken , etc. To sum up , not my favourite food. I believe the organizers tried their best so there's nothing much to complain about. After the meal , all the facis had to perform the camp dance on the stage. It's kind of boring , not until it was turned into a disco. Music was blasting and those university students started getting wild on the dance floor. I bet they went clubbing before. 100% guaranteed. The atmosphere was high at first , and it became a little boring later. At that moment , I felt like sleeping. My watch was confiscated so I didn't know the time.

Later that night , everyone had to assemble at the sports hall for some emotional session where we were supposed to share our sad stories , bla bla bla...Like I mentioned earlier , my camp faci was awkward so instead of doing what we're supposed to do , he 'entertained' us with ghost stories. We did talk crap but we did not know how to end our craps so that was when the horror joined in. Nah , it's not really creepy. My camp faci did talk about life as a university student and the campus. My group leader voiced out his need for a shampoo all of a sudden. LOL that was a little hilarious. Just imagine you were talking about horror stuffs when some guy barge in with shampoo. WTF HAHAHAHA. In the end of the night , everyone returned to their rooms and sleep , duhh.

The next day....

Woke up with a sore back cz the mattress was as hard as concrete. Did my daily routine with Yen Shin and headed to the hall with sports attire. Yes , we did morning exercises. Thank goodness it's not like those aerobic moves lead by sissy guys. The morning exercise was brief and we returned to our dorms again to pack our bags and belongings. I ate breakfast with my members at the cafeteria and it seemed like everyone wasn't really happy with the oily noodles.After breakfast , all the campers assembled at the sports hall , again. This time , a session with a counselor. We moved into groups according to the RIASEC system : Realistic , Investigative , Artistic , Social , Enterprising and Conventional. Not again... Being clueless , I randomly joined the Social group since everyone I knew was there. Each group had to make a boat and present it in front. Once again , the Putrians came up to construct the boat since the others were kind of clueless about it. I had an idea of making a base out of straws and in the end , we successfully made a nice-looking boat which we assumed could float with some help from a few girls whom we didn't know. Me and Yarshok went out to present our boat and apparently the counselor thought that we're more on the Enterprising side instead of Social. Well whatever. No one cares.

We had lunch later at the cafeteria. The food was okay I guess? We went up to the hall , again , to find an exhibition set up for campers to enquire about the fields they're interested in. Not again...Anyway , good marketing skills.

Can't take it anymore can I fast forward?

Iron Deuce grouped together again , just like how other groups were supposed to do the same. Members of each group were required to express their gratitude to their camp faci. As usual , my group leader wasn't being brave and he threw the task to me. Fine. I didn't really know what to say so I just complimented my camp faci with a few words of gratitude. I was not nervous or whatsoever , I just had nothing much to say. In order to make him happy , I praised him for being handsome. I wasn't really sure whether I gave a great speech or not but I hoped it's okay. LOL.

Coming to the end....

Prizes were given to the best group and also six best campers. Yen Shin was one of them and I have to say I'm proud of her :') While waiting for our bus , we took pictures with hot guys and team members. I must say , I couldn't really find a word to describe it. My team members are nice people although we'd only met for two days. And the activities , they're really creative and exciting. One word. A-W-E-S-O-M-E. I wish to attend such camps in the long run , if I have the opportunity.

The end.

Wait , it has not ended yet. I have photos :)

My camp faci :)

A hot camp faci I spotted :)

Iron Deuce :)

 

To hell it was-

I'm not what people think I am. Smart ? Good future? Talented?

I'm nothing but a piece of *beep*.

A futile being. Useless.

Junk.

And with this , we shall

*Long time no update*

Holidays , how I love them  <3 As usual , the long anticipated holiday ends with boredom O.O It's okay , as long as I don't need to go to school anymore , everything should be alright. Should be.
Yesterday was the very first time I stepped out of my house after 6 months . Note that the last time I hung out with friends was on Rachel's birthday in Jusco where I accidently met , never mind. My friends and I met up in school, former school to be precise since we're required to return the textbooks. I met some of my school mates too. They're still the same except for those who did something to their hair.

Me, Rachel, Alyssa, Yen Shin, Kai Ling , Rachael, Cheryl and Belinda went for movies in Jusco like what we planned the night before. Catching Fire was okay , and the storyline is of course the same like in the book. Liam Hemsworth , damn he's hot. It's a good thing he dumped Miley Cyrus. Haha I'm so mean. The movie ended like at approximately 2.45 p.m. and we headed for food after that. Some bought sushi , some ate McD , and others , including me weren't hungry. I only drank a cup of iced Milo and bought the latest Hello Kitty. I feel like a kiddo haha.Hui Shan joined us later because she watched the movie earlier.

The others wanted to sing karaoke since most of us planned to go home at 6. Rachel, Kai Ling , Cheryl and I didn't really feel like singing so we decided to chat a little while at McD while the others waited for us at Greenbox. We talked about college stuffs and apparently Rachel decided to further her studies at Sunway in January. The others, just like me , decided that it would be a better choice to wait for the release of SPM results. I really hoped for that KPM bursary , like desperately. Lady Luck, you better be on my side. After Cheryl left, we looked for the others at Greenbox. The atmosphere there was high , and they sang like mad. HAHA.

We started becoming high and sang Wrecking Ball on top of our lungs , regardless if it actually sounded nice. When it's time for Icona Pop , we sang ' I love it ' like crazy kids while recording it as a video. Geez , we must be insane. We also sang ' Friends ' together and it seemed that some of them thought it was emotional. At 6.15 p.m. ( approximately ) , Yen Shin and I left to go home. The emotional moment ? We started hugging one another and some eventually broke down a little. Hui Shan kept saying that this would be the last time we met. Huh? I seriously didn't get her. Come on , we could hang out anytime right? Unless she doesn't want to see me .....

For those who are going for January intake , well it's your choice so good luck.We can hang out when you're free. And what's with ' incomplete' ? In my opinion , if we are truly friends , absence and distance shouldn't be a problem. Having one or two mates absent shouldn't stop you from meeting up with other mates right? Presence doesn't matter much. The heart matters more. Once a friend , always a friend. I'm not much of a deep and emotional person, anyway. I sincerely apologize.

My apologies but different views always confuse me.

We bumped into Shilpa and Thivya at Starbucks while waiting for my mom. Ahh Shilpa , I've never really talked her since we're in different classes. I chatted with her and Thivya a little , yes about college stuffs again. Shilpa suddenly reminisced about Standard One , how me and her first became friends back then. The good old times :') Time flies so fast , we've been friends for 10 years ! Remarkably cool ? HAHA. I'll miss her too , and also my other classmates...

Don't worry , I'll never cry over friendships and other supposedly emotional stuffs. I'll just feel sad? Yeah , sad. Just sad.

Why do separations exist?

And to you , we shall meet again , if we have fate.

Crap I hate goodbyes.

The End.

Every beginning has an ending to it. Every prologue has an epilogue to it. And so is my high school life. It just ended on Wednesday. I'm not sure whether to be sad or confused about leaving school, but it's really over. OVER. FUCKING OVER. Reasons why I should be glad : No more uniform , no more stupid school rules, no more hectic school life , no more - ahh, never mind. Like what I mentioned, I'm confused. Neither happy nor sad.

Reminiscing....

27/11/2013
6 a.m.
I woke up in a rush. I was supposed to wake up at 5 , but I was really lethargic to get my ass up. Shoot, four chapters of Biology left to be studied. I wasn't sure if I was really prepared but I ran through the book like mad.

7.45 a.m.
I walked into the hall , with my stationery set gripped tightly in my right hand and a spirit of determination. Let's screw Biology , hard.

9 a.m.
Paper 1 ended. It was easy , hell of an easy. All the students rushed out of the hall to run through their notes for the very last time before Biology 2. I was kinda worried , 'cos Biology is my weak point. I have much hatred for the subject.

10 a.m.
Entered the hall , settled down and flipped the first page open. It looked easy , but hell no when you forgot the answer. Yes , I literally forgot whether triglyceride is of 1 glycerol and 3 fatty acids or vice versa. Lady luck wasn't really by my side. I screwed the tryglyceride question. FML. The other questions? I just crapped whatever I know.

3.30 p.m.
Skip the Paper 3 part. It was okay, I guess ? And SPM OFFICIALLY ENDED AT THIS HOUR. Obviously everyone started shouting like crazy .The others were overjoyed , but I , the cold-hearted person , did not feel or show any emotions. Whatever. I didn't really bid my classmates farewell . Just rushed to my car.

That's the scenario on the last day. It sounded so neutral. It's either I'm abnormal or the atmosphere wasn't high enough. Grr. Well , I really hope I could get A+ for Biology. Never once I had achieved an A+ for this subject and I wouldn't be too pleased to have guilt building up in me.

C'est la vie

I'm an outcast. The whole world hates me. I hate everyone more. I love isolation. I can't breathe when I'm sandwiched in between people. I dislike how people think or what they do. I'm actually hurt to know that people dislike me. There is no sincerity in this world. Everything is made up of lies.

Fine fine , I lied. I'm actually enjoying my life to the fullest currently. Yes I was an outcast during primary school, but I became a different person in secondary school. That change practically spiced up my life. Looking back in 2009, I remembered the first day I entered secondary school. It was crowded with familiar faces and also strangers whom I never thought I'll be friends with. I couldn't contain the excitement in me as I took my first step into the school compound. The craving for new adventures in me was instantly sparked, alive. At that moment, I told myself that I'm gonna change , and I made it. I convinced myself to be more confident , friendly and optimistic. I managed to get out of my comfort zone, finally. As expected , my primary friends didn't even greet or look at me, as if I was some scum. It's okay , I can survive without them.

Five freaking years. I actually made it through high school by making brand new friends , talking to people whom I once hate, becoming a chatterbox, making people laugh and sharing sweet yet bitter moments with everyone else. I'm not individualistic anymore. I slowly adapted myself to the word ' we ' . There is no more 'I' . Honestly speaking, high school has its ups and downs which are supposed to be challenges for me to overcome. It revealed to me that there are actually nice people available and of course, I learned how to differentiate . Not differentiation in add maths , but differentiation in the many types of people. From selfish to selfless, from honest to cunning , from friendly to hostile, from introverts to extroverts, from real to fake , etc.

No matter how much I hate the school authority, deep down in my heart , I'm sure I'll miss the times I had in school, my friends , my teachers, the canteen food , the ICT lab and everything else except for the fact that they always ask us to pay money LOL. As for my friends , I really don't know what to express about them. They may be nice or nasty at times, but they literally shaped me into who I am today. I've always wondered if they'll miss me after we leave school. I really hope that we can stick together for the rest of our lives. People do change , but not much right ? =D After 10 years, 20 years, 30 years or more, will we have the chance to meet again? Will you guys be better , worse or the same? I wish that my friends could be still the same or better *fingers crossed* I wanna be their bridesmaid in their weddings, if there's any chance they still remember me. Wait, I'm pretty sure we'll remember each other. We're not only friends , we're like sisters. I appreciated how my friends managed to cheer me up when I'm down, join me to do something stupid , get into stupid arguments together and laugh it off later, and also taught me a valuable lesson : YOU FUCKING NEED COOL FRIENDS LIKE THEM LOLOLOL.

I...I don't feel like leaving school. It's just to fast for me. Why can't I remain a child forever? I accept the fact that everyone has to grow up one day , but definitely not my immaturity. Yes I'm a childish person who are friends with a bunch of cray cray childish people. You've got a problem? I bet many are jealous of the bond my friends and I share X) Time just has to fly like rocket. In a blink of an eye , I will be 60 haha... I'm trying to imagine my friends acting stupid at that age X)

And for my teachers, both primary and secondary, I would like to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for being patient with me when I asked weird questions. Relevant to that, I still remember how my class teacher complained to my mom about me asking too many questions during Year 1. Well teacher, your job is to give me a long-winded explanation for each of my odd inquiry. No choice, I'm curious in nature.

I guess this post has the potential to be a letter , to everyone. SPM is a week and a few days away *shrieks* To be honest , I'm only 80% prepared , yet the principle is having high expectations in me. The burden.10 A+. I can actually kill for the sake of that result. LOL  no guarantee. The higher the expectation, the higher the disappointment. I'll just give my best.

Goodbye school , goodbye teachers , goodbye friends. C'est la vie.

 

More pics of grad night

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Fernanda :)

Le annoying Cheryl :D

With Cheryl and Swi Kei

 

With Fernanda and Rachael

 

 

 

 

Graduation Night

 

Look of the night :)

Yesterday was Grad Night , the night that marks my last year to be in high school. Overall it was okay , except for the food. I believe what I ate was rubbish. The starter, mushroom soup was salty as fuck. The main course , black pepper chicken chop had too much pepper. Macaroni ? They didn't even serve me that -.- Dessert ? A piece of honeydew per person. I paid freaking RM135 for this event , and that was what I got. Really disappointed with the teacher in charge. Why not Kensington? It's our money , not yours so you don't actually get to decide okay?!

Never mind , I had fun with my friends. Throughout the night , we were busy taking pictures with phones and cameras haha X) All of them look so pretty :o I looked plain standing near them. It's okay , I accept the fact that I'm plain. My classmate , Nisha won the ' Best Dressed' award. I'm really glad she won , 'cos her outfit costs RM2000 ! Wow o.o  It's very sparkly anyway. Meanwhile , Shara wore a kimono ^^ kawaii haha <3

Before the event ended , we managed to take pictures with David =D 'Monkeys of 5 Omega with the great Mr David ' LOL WE EVEN MADE HIM DO THE DUCKFACE OMG HAHAHAHAHA

*flashback*

Mum helped me out with the make-up , and my eyes fcking hurt thanks to the contact lens. It's been a while since I wore them , no wonder my eyes were so uncomfortable. My Dorothy Perkins dress wasn't allowed so I wore a maxi dress which I thought it looks like a night dress .____. And I freaking looked like a patient with the cardigan. What's their problem with bare shoulders? It's not like my shoulders are obscene or something -.- Footwear? A pair of blue wedges I bought from CR2. It kinda hurt when I walked in them. I'm never good with heels =.= God , I walked in a very awkward way. Never mind.

A big congratulations to Rahinee for winning the ' Pelajar Mithali ' ( for students with good discipline ) award and also Cheryl for winning idk what award but it's for students who excel in academics , co-curricular activities, leadership and discipline . Justin should have been there LOL.

Photos !





Big family of 5 Omega <3 with Mr David
 

With Hui Shan



Them derps

Rachael is hawt man <3 (second from the right)



Mama Rachel <3



Derps of 5 Omega making duckface with Mr David X)

Yay :D

Guess what? The video we submitted for Liga Remaja Kreatif Video Competition won the third place ! It was so unexpected.. I still remember how teacher told us that our video managed to be shortlisted in the top ten a few weeks back. Well, my team members and I actually aimed for only consolation prize since it's our first video and we didn't actually expect to win anything. I told Hui Shan not to have too high hopes just in case we'll be let down if our expectations are not met. Fall hard on the ground instead of falling among the stars.

The award ceremony was held in Cyberjaya so we had to travel with our teacher and the senior assistant in his Innova. Yen Shin did not turn up 'cos her dad wouldn't allow so we had Malar to replace her. Once we reached there, we saw many students in attires that make them look smart and professional. We wore prefect attires so I guess we looked cool too. And one more thing : the slipper made me wear court shoes like wtf? My feet hurt like hell since I'm not used to heels .___. Why can't I wear normal canvas shoes? -.-

Back to the ceremony. The place was nice and the air-cond was cold enough. When they started announcing consolation prize winners , I felt my heart thumping really quickly. Alas, our team was not called to receive the consolation prize which comprised RM500. We started to panic and wondered if we actually won anything. Who knew , they played the videos of the top three winners, and our video was one of them =D Yayyers !

As second runner-up, each of us received a Canon digital camera and RM2000 to be divided among ourselves. Our teacher actually implied that we should give her some money -.- how straight forward.
Here are some pictures :

 

 

 

Counting Down

About 22 or 23 days to go. I'm not really good at counting days, that's why I'm not so sure LOL.
I really have no idea what I've been doing these days. Can't really consider it as studying. I don't feel a single thing. As if I should just play cool with SPM. What if I'm more than ready but I don't realize it ?:D Hope so. SPM doesn't really determine my future. No wonder they say life is not about straight A's. You see, I'm actually aiming for straight A+'s for the sake of scholarships. One can't really get a career straight away with SPM cert. I need to go through tertiary education which rakes in lots of money from people .

I wish the fighting spirit in me still exists. I'm in jittery 'cos of my numb feelings towards the coming exam. Sitting back , like a boss B) Shit.

For the previous weekends , I've been studying at Jing Si Book & Café. The environment there is conducive and serene . It's really really quiet. People there comprises students like me , rushing through their revisions. Nobody actually dares to make a sound LOL. They only whisper. Apparently, each customer is entitled to order at least a drink if he or she wants to stay there till midnight. And yeah, the air-cond there is freaking cold.

I can actually concentrate on my studies there compared to my own study room. There's less distraction, unless your friends are there. -___- We'll always end up talking nonsense , in careful whispers HAHAHAHAHA.

Since I'm free tomorrow, guess I'm going there again....This is how boredom starts to strike when you visit the same place subsequently LOL.

Judgmental people

" Why are your eyes so small? "
" Why is your feet so big? "
" Why are you so hairy? "
" I think it looks ugly on you. "
" I wanna be a porcelain doll , just like Barbie. "

' Nobody's perfect ' is a very common statement to make people realize that no one can be like Barbie dolls , unless you have plastic surgery.

Judgmental people really get on my nerves. Can't they just shut up and make life better for a day? You don't have the rights to decide whether a person is beautiful or ugly , 'cos you're not really pretty either. Urrgh. Let me answer the above questions. Why are her eyes small? 'Cos she's an Asian and it's genetic. You trying to say that her parents are ugly? Dude, your eyes are small too. Why is her feet big? She needs a big surface area to support her abnormal height. Please go study Science. Why is she hairy? She's a human, a homo sapien . I get that you don't have hair on your skin, 'cos you're made of plastic anyway. Why it looks ugly on her? That compliment is much appreciated. It looks uglier on you anyway. You wanna be like Barbie? Shut up and go for plastic surgery in Korea.

I seriously don't know when can those judgmental people stop giving ridiculous comments about people. Trust me, most of the judgmental people are highly flawed and they look nothing near perfection. They are almost the opposite of beautiful.

Kind-hearted people are the most beautiful creatures on Earth. No point being beautiful on the outside when you're actually a mean bitch inside, always finding opportunities to lower people's self-esteem. How sadistic. You know why people are judgmental? Jealously. They envy their victims a lot and to make themselves feel better , they judge like mad. You wanna feel better? Do something that benefits you and everyone else. It would be so much better than those empty talks (:

Please lick my shoes instead.

Cowardice

" Why didn't she tell us earlier? " * gives a cold glare *

" I'm really not happy about her." * rolls eyes *

 

This , is a common scenario that takes place when people are not happy with you. If you are aware, you know they're talking at your back. If you don't , it's obvious that they are whispering at your back. I guarantee, most of the time you will be unaware of people's dissatisfaction towards you. Why? Because they do not tell you. They expect you to realize that by hinting you with dirty looks . Really dirty looks that can crumple up your heart. To make you feel sorry, of course.

 

What amuses me is why these people do not want to voice out their dissatisfaction straight away? The people whom you're angry at may be stupid to not get the little hints you give. This is a democratic era so I believe there is always a space for everyone to express their thoughts. However, there're these certain people who prefer to have little talks instead of confronting the person who offended them. They are labeled as 'cowards'. Instead of making those stupid ugly faces, wouldn't it be better to solve the problem on spot? When asked, these cowards will just keep quiet and pretend nothing has happened. -.-

 

I don't find anything cool about making a person's life miserable by doing those unnecessary little actions. Only sore losers do that.

 

Can one be killed for many times?

Good question. I hope I can go on killing spree as frequent as I can , just like in the gaming world. Too bad , I'm just too nice. It kinda sucks that we have to deal with many types of human beings whom I consider not really human beings. Can call them animals ahh? Nope, animals are so much nicer. I just don't get why certain people continue to pretend nothing's going on when it's so obvious that they did something unpleasant, indirectly. These are what I really hate : fakes, hypocrites, accusers , liars and traitors , especially. I don't mean that I don't have these characters in me but even if I do, I mean no harm. For example, telling white lies and pretend to be innocent for the sake of covering up myself and everyone else. Oh wow, I'm an angel in disguise. Bullshit. How many can actually feel your sincerity or appreciate your deeds?

I fucking hate filthy bitches. Not those who sleep around with every guy in town , but those whom I think their attitudes and behaviors pollute my eyes. Sorry to be harsh , but fuck you. Especially fake Barbies. Sometimes it makes me wonder whether I'm a threat or not. It's okay if you don't wanna help me out. I know I have the ability to threaten and "kill" you. But thanks to these " I don't know what should I call them " , I know how awesome I am. I don't give a shit yo.

Humans are selfish. However , certain people are beyond selfish. They're desperate to tumble you down. If it happens to be your own friends, giving them cold shoulders would be a highly recommended option. They are not even worth your attention. Even dogs can do better. My apologies for comparing these people with dogs but hey , it makes so much sense.

"Funny how it's okay for you to help a person, but it's not okay when you need help from the person."

Drift away..

Ever feel like a dandelion ?

Travel shots

Some delayed photos of my last trip to Malacca. Historical , ancient places and buildings are so cool :)

 

8/9/2013

It's raining heavily outside. My shoulders are becoming sore as I'm uploading delayed pictures to Facebook. Uploading pictures is not an easy job when you have crappy Internet connection. Excluding the editing part, it takes up hours . Geez I'm tired.

During trials , I was deprived of sleep. Whenever I lay on the bed, there is a voice in my head, telling me to hush and fall asleep. It's like dying. I'm not really sure if I put in efforts for trials or not. I was kinda relaxed, but when the papers reached my grip, uh-oh. School-based trials is definitely not okay. Fuck my life, I could feel my heart thumping faster than before. No , my hands were not shaky but they were cold as hell. It occurred to me during Chemistry , Biology and Accounts. Shit, why do the teachers wanna make the students' lives miserable ? Yes , I did badly and I doubted any miracle . Like what the fuck?

It's funny how you were so good at something, but when you look at the questions , you know you're doomed. You lost memories of your skills and what you've studied. Bam !

You've got a point

" No point arguing with pointless people."

Everyone has their own views. Whether you like it or not, you have to respect their ideas and principles. You can't just walk up to them , whisper something in their ears and brainwash them. It makes no sense when you're just too stubborn to accept the reality and trap yourself in your own fantasy. It's okay to be drifted away in fantasies and illusions, but before you knew it, you're slowly dying inside. You will be drifted apart from everything and everyone.

Kay maybe I exaggerated too much. It annoys me much when there are subjective people around. They only think from one aspect , and never bother with other people's point of view. And it irritates me more when a subjective person tries to argue and crumble the walls of an objective person. It's like putting yourself into further embarrassment 'cos we all know that pointless people are always the losers in the end.

Why waste time and energy to change other people like some dumb propaganda when you can have better stuffs to do ? Worse to come is when pointless people try to influence people with strong principles that actually make so much sense compared to the noise those empty vessels like to make.
Just , shut the fuck up.

You wanna argue? Get your facts right. Look into every aspect , from A to Z . Consider the feelings and thoughts of people you wanna argue with. Do anything that could prevent yourself from looking like a sore loser in the end of the day. Or better still , shut up. Keep quiet and keep those ideas to yourself and yes, get some logic. No wonder common sense is never common.
 

Mingled.

Yay ! Let's welcome August ! ( lol wtf am I crapping? )

I'm really really overjoyed today , for idk why. Just happy. Just wanna smile. Just wanna laugh. Till my face muscles hurt..
I'm usually a moody person who's cold to almost everyone. Surprisingly , my classmates noticed that little change in me . They assumed that my 'boyfriend' confessed his love for me. LOL. Speaking of that , it WILL NOT happen to me. Nope , never. I'm not being a pessimist ( although I am most of the time ) but it's written all over my face. Neh , I'm not les or bi . Let's say I have low self-esteem : I think I'm just plain Jane.

There's nothing wrong being a plain Jane , but I'm just stating that maybe that's the reason why guys never go after me. No , I'm not desperate , just stating the fact. Call me a narcissist , I think I'm prettier than some girls who have boyfriends. Guess appearance is not the problem here.

What am I doing ?

Attitude. Girls that are less likely pretty have guys going for them 'cos of their pleasant attitude. They're nice , and guys like nice girls like how girls like nice guys although they prefer bad asses. There is that special something in them which eventually makes them beautiful to the eyes of the beholders.

Me ? Eww. I'm a mean person who goes sarcastic for almost the whole day . I can't deny this but I'm kinda arrogant and I enjoy showing off even if it's not about designer handbags or shoes. I like bragging about my achievements. I want people to look up to me. I-

What the fuck. Hahahahahahaha....

This is so surreal , LOL. I'm not that bad , right ? I always try my best to be humble , but inquisitive people know my stuffs before I even know it. Damm.

Well , the main problem is , I don't know and I don't care =) I like who am I now and I'm going to do it my way. No , I'm not going to mask myself like a fake bitch trying real hard to be close friends with everyone. I will stay this way and haters are gonna hate , anyway.

However , I'm pretty shy :3 And yes , I'm actually kinda gullible. It's bullshit that I actually believe it when a guy claimed that he's into me. How stupid. *facepalm* But it's a good thing that I rid the tick off before it bites =) Yeah , that's better.... Wait , what if it's true and saying 'NO' sounds a little mean ? Aaaahhh , forget it! I kinda like the guy a bit but it's okay , bad timing anyway. There're probably millions of hot guys waiting for me out there. *screams*

Bad news , Terry's(my dog)  got a surgery tomorrow to remove the fibroid at the side of his neck. I hope everything's gonna be fine. Poor doggie =(

Cliches.

The moment she broke down , he wanted to hold her and comfort her at that instant. He did not move a single inch. All he did was staring at her , feeling the unexplained sore in his mind , his heart. Why did he care so much? They could only be best friends , not beyond that.

He kept this little secret for a very long time , for the fear that she might not accept it. Those unspoken words could estrange her from him. Will she feel the same way ?

They share the same dreams and passion. It may be odd for a girl to be best friends with a guy , but they pulled it off well. There she was , tearing over another boy as he watched on. The moment of silence took him some time to actually open his mouth , despite being tongue-tied. She tilted her head up and wondered what was he doing - she did not realise his presence for the past 10 minutes.

-Who is it?-

She was dumbfounded. She looked lost , as if she did not know where to get the answer.

- I don't understand.-

- It was him , right ? -

Upon hearing his question , she misinterpreted somehow and stood up against him.

- You're such a fake.-

She grabbed her bag and stormed off. Before she could leave , he grasp her wrist as tight as he could.

- Don't go. Please tell me.-

- You know him for your life.-

She struggled hard to break free her wrist , but in vain. He pulled her towards him and embraced her. She was shocked , of course.

- I'm in love with a girl whom I called my best friend , and I'll feel the guilt in me if some bastard breaks her heart. -

Their hearts started beating in a synchronized manner.

- I was crying over the bastard whom I called my best bro.-

He was over the moon upon hearing her reply. She returned his embrace as it started to rain.

The ' I fell for my best friend ' thing is such a cliche. I hoped to witness some not-so-normal romance one day , 'cos the television dramas are replaying the same old boring stories again and again. They must have ran out of ideas =.=

31/7/2013

Skipped school today for that god dammed Add Maths project (Y)  I'm such a badass  =P
Since it's still morning , nothing pretty much happened. Yesterday? Oh , it was World's Friendship Day =)
I wished some of my friends , and those whom I didn't wish , so sorry it kinda slipped off my mind...
Neh , no big deal. Apparently I was really quiet yesterday. I didn't talk much , 'cos I didn't feel like talking. I was also kinda annoyed with my noisy friends  =/  Trust me , they were really irritating. Well , I don't usually think that way. Guess it's PMS X)

.............

Bye.

Passion

I've not been updating my blog recently - currently entangled in between school activities and the goddamn pressure of the upcoming trials.

I don't like studying. Nobody likes studying actually , unless the person's a freak. I study for the sake of my not really well-planned future. Mum's always telling me that education changes your life , your destiny. But , what's the point of studying like hell when you don't really know what your passion is? Even if your have passions and interests , parents might not nod their heads and say a simple 'yes' . Typical Asian parents.

Most of the people know what they want to be , what they want to pursue in the long run , but not what they really like. There is a big difference between passion and requirements. I know , we need to keep up with the reality but feelings matter too. You need to feel the love towards your career. You can't just do your jobs just because you have to or you freaking need the money. What's the use of obtaining high salary when you are unhappy? Is it worthwhile to give up your happiness for the pursuit of material ? No.. In the end of the day , you may get what you want , but you may not enjoy it because it's not what you really love.

Whenever I tell my parents about passion and etc , they'll give me the look as if I'm not being serious with my life. I am seriously clear that we need to be happy to keep moving on with our lives. You can't move on with depression , can you? Well , as for myself , I have no idea what my real passions are. I'm compatible with everything , but there's one thing I'll be the most comfortable with - it has not been found yet. All these years , I've picked up new things just to figure out what goes best with me. I do enjoy photography , music , literature but something inside tells me that something is still missing. My passions for these hobbies are genuine , but I realised that they're not my best interests. There must be this one thing which I will love more than my current interests.

I'm a little confused right now . I really wish there's a fairy godmother who can lead me the way. Please send me some guidance , I'm begging You.

And for my future career , omg I'm bout to get high blood pressure. You see , I have no talents , or maybe I have hidden talents , but there's nothing I could do to dig them out. Miraculously , these talents will appear out of nowhere but it takes time , or maybe these talents are already dug out :o AND I DID NOT REALISE. Someone please make me notice T.T

Marathon !

Participated in Seremban's Half Marathon for the very first time of my life. Guess what ? I won a medal for the 10 km girl's category :)

Maybe the spirit in me was ignited by my 'kiasu'ness LOL. Man , I was desperate for a medal.

Ran for 10 km and I survived !

The race started at 7.00 a.m. and of course , my friends joined in the fun . There's something I really hated during the race. Those slow coaches. They're practically blocking my way ! Why did those people join in the first place if they were there for their gf , bf , friends , etc. Come on , even an old uncle could run faster than you. Shame on you for embarassing us , the youths -_-

Another incident during the race made me pissed : Some stupid dick pushed me from behind while I was sprinting. Fuck you man , fuck you. I tripped and unfortunately , injured the scar on my elbow . Hui Shan was injured too , but thank her lucky stars , the wound on her palm wasn't that bad. Fucking inconsiderate people.

I was running towards the finishing line , when I felt my muscles pulling. Neh , who cares? Kiasu people like me just continued running like a cow LOL. I was really lethargic , but it was all worth it :) I could barely walk now -_- so near to being crippled.

I kept bumping into him today -_- must be jinx again..

NNC Annual Dinner 3.0 / 13

6th of July 2013 , a day to be remembered , engraved on our hearts :)

'Twas it was the third annual gathering for Ngong Ngong Club last night at Kai Ling's place. We had a BBQ set up with lotsa lotsa FOOD :)) How time flies , it was still fresh in my memory that the first event took place at Belinda's house , only without Alyssa and Yen Shin . The second gathering was at Hui Shan's house,   and of course , BBQ again. BBQ is definitely an undying tradition :3

So yesterday...

I was the very last person to arrive , at approx 7.30 pm . I thought I was early , cos I couldn't sense any event going on from my car. When I got down , everyone started singing ' Happy Birthday '. The spark in me was ignited , but it extinguished when what they did turned out to be a joke . Oh well :/ Hui Shan asked if I even get their 'joke' . Well , I didn't . I didn't know what the heck was that , and it's definitely so uncool . -_-

At the beginning, the party was a lil down , like there's no party spirit . I was being chill of course , since the little joke of theirs was so uncool. Trying to be compatible LOL. In your face! Okay , let's leave these spoilers and move on . Same story , we ate and ate and ate and ate . *BURPS*

After eating up almost everything , we entered the house , took pictures for hours , shouted under the disco ball , danced along with some K-pops and kissed ? Whoa , don't ever misunderstand. Yesterday was World's Kissing Day and we sorta recorded  an Insta Video of everyone kissing , the phone screen of course HAHA. I received a kiss from Rachael anyway :)

Rachael's kind enough to make us key chains with each of our names on it. Aww how sweet of you :D

*spoiler alert*

Overall , the gathering was fun , but I couldn't feel the 'high' spirit like in Hui Shan's house last year. It's not really boring lah , but it lacked something . The craziness. Must be it. Anyway , I should stop complaining and be really appreciative for having an opportunity to spend time with my friends.

NNC ftw !