Fine fine , I lied. I'm actually enjoying my life to the fullest currently. Yes I was an outcast during primary school, but I became a different person in secondary school. That change practically spiced up my life. Looking back in 2009, I remembered the first day I entered secondary school. It was crowded with familiar faces and also strangers whom I never thought I'll be friends with. I couldn't contain the excitement in me as I took my first step into the school compound. The craving for new adventures in me was instantly sparked, alive. At that moment, I told myself that I'm gonna change , and I made it. I convinced myself to be more confident , friendly and optimistic. I managed to get out of my comfort zone, finally. As expected , my primary friends didn't even greet or look at me, as if I was some scum. It's okay , I can survive without them.
Five freaking years. I actually made it through high school by making brand new friends , talking to people whom I once hate, becoming a chatterbox, making people laugh and sharing sweet yet bitter moments with everyone else. I'm not individualistic anymore. I slowly adapted myself to the word ' we ' . There is no more 'I' . Honestly speaking, high school has its ups and downs which are supposed to be challenges for me to overcome. It revealed to me that there are actually nice people available and of course, I learned how to differentiate . Not differentiation in add maths , but differentiation in the many types of people. From selfish to selfless, from honest to cunning , from friendly to hostile, from introverts to extroverts, from real to fake , etc.
No matter how much I hate the school authority, deep down in my heart , I'm sure I'll miss the times I had in school, my friends , my teachers, the canteen food , the ICT lab and everything else except for the fact that they always ask us to pay money LOL. As for my friends , I really don't know what to express about them. They may be nice or nasty at times, but they literally shaped me into who I am today. I've always wondered if they'll miss me after we leave school. I really hope that we can stick together for the rest of our lives. People do change , but not much right ? =D After 10 years, 20 years, 30 years or more, will we have the chance to meet again? Will you guys be better , worse or the same? I wish that my friends could be still the same or better *fingers crossed* I wanna be their bridesmaid in their weddings, if there's any chance they still remember me. Wait, I'm pretty sure we'll remember each other. We're not only friends , we're like sisters. I appreciated how my friends managed to cheer me up when I'm down, join me to do something stupid , get into stupid arguments together and laugh it off later, and also taught me a valuable lesson : YOU FUCKING NEED COOL FRIENDS LIKE THEM LOLOLOL.
I...I don't feel like leaving school. It's just to fast for me. Why can't I remain a child forever? I accept the fact that everyone has to grow up one day , but definitely not my immaturity. Yes I'm a childish person who are friends with a bunch of cray cray childish people. You've got a problem? I bet many are jealous of the bond my friends and I share X) Time just has to fly like rocket. In a blink of an eye , I will be 60 haha... I'm trying to imagine my friends acting stupid at that age X)
And for my teachers, both primary and secondary, I would like to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for being patient with me when I asked weird questions. Relevant to that, I still remember how my class teacher complained to my mom about me asking too many questions during Year 1. Well teacher, your job is to give me a long-winded explanation for each of my odd inquiry. No choice, I'm curious in nature.
I guess this post has the potential to be a letter , to everyone. SPM is a week and a few days away *shrieks* To be honest , I'm only 80% prepared , yet the principle is having high expectations in me. The burden.10 A+. I can actually kill for the sake of that result. LOL no guarantee. The higher the expectation, the higher the disappointment. I'll just give my best.
Goodbye school , goodbye teachers , goodbye friends. C'est la vie.
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