Passion

I've not been updating my blog recently - currently entangled in between school activities and the goddamn pressure of the upcoming trials.

I don't like studying. Nobody likes studying actually , unless the person's a freak. I study for the sake of my not really well-planned future. Mum's always telling me that education changes your life , your destiny. But , what's the point of studying like hell when you don't really know what your passion is? Even if your have passions and interests , parents might not nod their heads and say a simple 'yes' . Typical Asian parents.

Most of the people know what they want to be , what they want to pursue in the long run , but not what they really like. There is a big difference between passion and requirements. I know , we need to keep up with the reality but feelings matter too. You need to feel the love towards your career. You can't just do your jobs just because you have to or you freaking need the money. What's the use of obtaining high salary when you are unhappy? Is it worthwhile to give up your happiness for the pursuit of material ? No.. In the end of the day , you may get what you want , but you may not enjoy it because it's not what you really love.

Whenever I tell my parents about passion and etc , they'll give me the look as if I'm not being serious with my life. I am seriously clear that we need to be happy to keep moving on with our lives. You can't move on with depression , can you? Well , as for myself , I have no idea what my real passions are. I'm compatible with everything , but there's one thing I'll be the most comfortable with - it has not been found yet. All these years , I've picked up new things just to figure out what goes best with me. I do enjoy photography , music , literature but something inside tells me that something is still missing. My passions for these hobbies are genuine , but I realised that they're not my best interests. There must be this one thing which I will love more than my current interests.

I'm a little confused right now . I really wish there's a fairy godmother who can lead me the way. Please send me some guidance , I'm begging You.

And for my future career , omg I'm bout to get high blood pressure. You see , I have no talents , or maybe I have hidden talents , but there's nothing I could do to dig them out. Miraculously , these talents will appear out of nowhere but it takes time , or maybe these talents are already dug out :o AND I DID NOT REALISE. Someone please make me notice T.T