The moment she broke down , he wanted to hold her and comfort her at that instant. He did not move a single inch. All he did was staring at her , feeling the unexplained sore in his mind , his heart. Why did he care so much? They could only be best friends , not beyond that.
He kept this little secret for a very long time , for the fear that she might not accept it. Those unspoken words could estrange her from him. Will she feel the same way ?
They share the same dreams and passion. It may be odd for a girl to be best friends with a guy , but they pulled it off well. There she was , tearing over another boy as he watched on. The moment of silence took him some time to actually open his mouth , despite being tongue-tied. She tilted her head up and wondered what was he doing - she did not realise his presence for the past 10 minutes.
-Who is it?-
She was dumbfounded. She looked lost , as if she did not know where to get the answer.
- I don't understand.-
- It was him , right ? -
Upon hearing his question , she misinterpreted somehow and stood up against him.
- You're such a fake.-
She grabbed her bag and stormed off. Before she could leave , he grasp her wrist as tight as he could.
- Don't go. Please tell me.-
- You know him for your life.-
She struggled hard to break free her wrist , but in vain. He pulled her towards him and embraced her. She was shocked , of course.
- I'm in love with a girl whom I called my best friend , and I'll feel the guilt in me if some bastard breaks her heart. -
Their hearts started beating in a synchronized manner.
- I was crying over the bastard whom I called my best bro.-
He was over the moon upon hearing her reply. She returned his embrace as it started to rain.
The ' I fell for my best friend ' thing is such a cliche. I hoped to witness some not-so-normal romance one day , 'cos the television dramas are replaying the same old boring stories again and again. They must have ran out of ideas =.=
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
31/7/2013
Skipped school today for that god dammed Add Maths project (Y) I'm such a badass =P
Since it's still morning , nothing pretty much happened. Yesterday? Oh , it was World's Friendship Day =)
I wished some of my friends , and those whom I didn't wish , so sorry it kinda slipped off my mind...
Neh , no big deal. Apparently I was really quiet yesterday. I didn't talk much , 'cos I didn't feel like talking. I was also kinda annoyed with my noisy friends =/ Trust me , they were really irritating. Well , I don't usually think that way. Guess it's PMS X)
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Bye.
Since it's still morning , nothing pretty much happened. Yesterday? Oh , it was World's Friendship Day =)
I wished some of my friends , and those whom I didn't wish , so sorry it kinda slipped off my mind...
Neh , no big deal. Apparently I was really quiet yesterday. I didn't talk much , 'cos I didn't feel like talking. I was also kinda annoyed with my noisy friends =/ Trust me , they were really irritating. Well , I don't usually think that way. Guess it's PMS X)
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Bye.
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Passion
I've not been updating my blog recently - currently entangled in between school activities and the goddamn pressure of the upcoming trials.
I don't like studying. Nobody likes studying actually , unless the person's a freak. I study for the sake of my not really well-planned future. Mum's always telling me that education changes your life , your destiny. But , what's the point of studying like hell when you don't really know what your passion is? Even if your have passions and interests , parents might not nod their heads and say a simple 'yes' . Typical Asian parents.
Most of the people know what they want to be , what they want to pursue in the long run , but not what they really like. There is a big difference between passion and requirements. I know , we need to keep up with the reality but feelings matter too. You need to feel the love towards your career. You can't just do your jobs just because you have to or you freaking need the money. What's the use of obtaining high salary when you are unhappy? Is it worthwhile to give up your happiness for the pursuit of material ? No.. In the end of the day , you may get what you want , but you may not enjoy it because it's not what you really love.
Whenever I tell my parents about passion and etc , they'll give me the look as if I'm not being serious with my life. I am seriously clear that we need to be happy to keep moving on with our lives. You can't move on with depression , can you? Well , as for myself , I have no idea what my real passions are. I'm compatible with everything , but there's one thing I'll be the most comfortable with - it has not been found yet. All these years , I've picked up new things just to figure out what goes best with me. I do enjoy photography , music , literature but something inside tells me that something is still missing. My passions for these hobbies are genuine , but I realised that they're not my best interests. There must be this one thing which I will love more than my current interests.
I'm a little confused right now . I really wish there's a fairy godmother who can lead me the way. Please send me some guidance , I'm begging You.
And for my future career , omg I'm bout to get high blood pressure. You see , I have no talents , or maybe I have hidden talents , but there's nothing I could do to dig them out. Miraculously , these talents will appear out of nowhere but it takes time , or maybe these talents are already dug out :o AND I DID NOT REALISE. Someone please make me notice T.T
I don't like studying. Nobody likes studying actually , unless the person's a freak. I study for the sake of my not really well-planned future. Mum's always telling me that education changes your life , your destiny. But , what's the point of studying like hell when you don't really know what your passion is? Even if your have passions and interests , parents might not nod their heads and say a simple 'yes' . Typical Asian parents.
Most of the people know what they want to be , what they want to pursue in the long run , but not what they really like. There is a big difference between passion and requirements. I know , we need to keep up with the reality but feelings matter too. You need to feel the love towards your career. You can't just do your jobs just because you have to or you freaking need the money. What's the use of obtaining high salary when you are unhappy? Is it worthwhile to give up your happiness for the pursuit of material ? No.. In the end of the day , you may get what you want , but you may not enjoy it because it's not what you really love.
Whenever I tell my parents about passion and etc , they'll give me the look as if I'm not being serious with my life. I am seriously clear that we need to be happy to keep moving on with our lives. You can't move on with depression , can you? Well , as for myself , I have no idea what my real passions are. I'm compatible with everything , but there's one thing I'll be the most comfortable with - it has not been found yet. All these years , I've picked up new things just to figure out what goes best with me. I do enjoy photography , music , literature but something inside tells me that something is still missing. My passions for these hobbies are genuine , but I realised that they're not my best interests. There must be this one thing which I will love more than my current interests.
I'm a little confused right now . I really wish there's a fairy godmother who can lead me the way. Please send me some guidance , I'm begging You.
And for my future career , omg I'm bout to get high blood pressure. You see , I have no talents , or maybe I have hidden talents , but there's nothing I could do to dig them out. Miraculously , these talents will appear out of nowhere but it takes time , or maybe these talents are already dug out :o AND I DID NOT REALISE. Someone please make me notice T.T
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Marathon !
Participated in Seremban's Half Marathon for the very first time of my life. Guess what ? I won a medal for the 10 km girl's category :)
Maybe the spirit in me was ignited by my 'kiasu'ness LOL. Man , I was desperate for a medal.
Ran for 10 km and I survived !
The race started at 7.00 a.m. and of course , my friends joined in the fun . There's something I really hated during the race. Those slow coaches. They're practically blocking my way ! Why did those people join in the first place if they were there for their gf , bf , friends , etc. Come on , even an old uncle could run faster than you. Shame on you for embarassing us , the youths -_-
Another incident during the race made me pissed : Some stupid dick pushed me from behind while I was sprinting. Fuck you man , fuck you. I tripped and unfortunately , injured the scar on my elbow . Hui Shan was injured too , but thank her lucky stars , the wound on her palm wasn't that bad. Fucking inconsiderate people.
I was running towards the finishing line , when I felt my muscles pulling. Neh , who cares? Kiasu people like me just continued running like a cow LOL. I was really lethargic , but it was all worth it :) I could barely walk now -_- so near to being crippled.
I kept bumping into him today -_- must be jinx again..
Maybe the spirit in me was ignited by my 'kiasu'ness LOL. Man , I was desperate for a medal.
Ran for 10 km and I survived !
The race started at 7.00 a.m. and of course , my friends joined in the fun . There's something I really hated during the race. Those slow coaches. They're practically blocking my way ! Why did those people join in the first place if they were there for their gf , bf , friends , etc. Come on , even an old uncle could run faster than you. Shame on you for embarassing us , the youths -_-
Another incident during the race made me pissed : Some stupid dick pushed me from behind while I was sprinting. Fuck you man , fuck you. I tripped and unfortunately , injured the scar on my elbow . Hui Shan was injured too , but thank her lucky stars , the wound on her palm wasn't that bad. Fucking inconsiderate people.
I was running towards the finishing line , when I felt my muscles pulling. Neh , who cares? Kiasu people like me just continued running like a cow LOL. I was really lethargic , but it was all worth it :) I could barely walk now -_- so near to being crippled.
I kept bumping into him today -_- must be jinx again..
NNC Annual Dinner 3.0 / 13
6th of July 2013 , a day to be remembered , engraved on our hearts :)
'Twas it was the third annual gathering for Ngong Ngong Club last night at Kai Ling's place. We had a BBQ set up with lotsa lotsa FOOD :)) How time flies , it was still fresh in my memory that the first event took place at Belinda's house , only without Alyssa and Yen Shin . The second gathering was at Hui Shan's house, and of course , BBQ again. BBQ is definitely an undying tradition :3
So yesterday...
I was the very last person to arrive , at approx 7.30 pm . I thought I was early , cos I couldn't sense any event going on from my car. When I got down , everyone started singing ' Happy Birthday '. The spark in me was ignited , but it extinguished when what they did turned out to be a joke . Oh well :/ Hui Shan asked if I even get their 'joke' . Well , I didn't . I didn't know what the heck was that , and it's definitely so uncool . -_-
At the beginning, the party was a lil down , like there's no party spirit . I was being chill of course , since the little joke of theirs was so uncool. Trying to be compatible LOL. In your face! Okay , let's leave these spoilers and move on . Same story , we ate and ate and ate and ate . *BURPS*
After eating up almost everything , we entered the house , took pictures for hours , shouted under the disco ball , danced along with some K-pops and kissed ? Whoa , don't ever misunderstand. Yesterday was World's Kissing Day and we sorta recorded an Insta Video of everyone kissing , the phone screen of course HAHA. I received a kiss from Rachael anyway :)
Rachael's kind enough to make us key chains with each of our names on it. Aww how sweet of you :D
*spoiler alert*
Overall , the gathering was fun , but I couldn't feel the 'high' spirit like in Hui Shan's house last year. It's not really boring lah , but it lacked something . The craziness. Must be it. Anyway , I should stop complaining and be really appreciative for having an opportunity to spend time with my friends.
NNC ftw !
'Twas it was the third annual gathering for Ngong Ngong Club last night at Kai Ling's place. We had a BBQ set up with lotsa lotsa FOOD :)) How time flies , it was still fresh in my memory that the first event took place at Belinda's house , only without Alyssa and Yen Shin . The second gathering was at Hui Shan's house, and of course , BBQ again. BBQ is definitely an undying tradition :3
So yesterday...
I was the very last person to arrive , at approx 7.30 pm . I thought I was early , cos I couldn't sense any event going on from my car. When I got down , everyone started singing ' Happy Birthday '. The spark in me was ignited , but it extinguished when what they did turned out to be a joke . Oh well :/ Hui Shan asked if I even get their 'joke' . Well , I didn't . I didn't know what the heck was that , and it's definitely so uncool . -_-
At the beginning, the party was a lil down , like there's no party spirit . I was being chill of course , since the little joke of theirs was so uncool. Trying to be compatible LOL. In your face! Okay , let's leave these spoilers and move on . Same story , we ate and ate and ate and ate . *BURPS*
After eating up almost everything , we entered the house , took pictures for hours , shouted under the disco ball , danced along with some K-pops and kissed ? Whoa , don't ever misunderstand. Yesterday was World's Kissing Day and we sorta recorded an Insta Video of everyone kissing , the phone screen of course HAHA. I received a kiss from Rachael anyway :)
Rachael's kind enough to make us key chains with each of our names on it. Aww how sweet of you :D
*spoiler alert*
Overall , the gathering was fun , but I couldn't feel the 'high' spirit like in Hui Shan's house last year. It's not really boring lah , but it lacked something . The craziness. Must be it. Anyway , I should stop complaining and be really appreciative for having an opportunity to spend time with my friends.
NNC ftw !
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
17th
" 10 A+ for SPM , " I whispered carefully as I blew the candles out , one by one.
Finally seventeen , good old Jean. It feels , I don't know. I don't feel a thing. It's my birthday but I'm not feeling anything. Am I experiencing PMS or something? Frankly speaking , I don't have the birthday mood. I had it last night , but not on the actual day.
Maybe my actual bday is on 1st but the nurse got mixed up with dates X)
But I'm grateful for the little things my family and friends have done for me. Just a big thank you , everyone :)
Thank God too , for He allowed me to live by another year.
What actually happened ? My family had a pre-celebration with me last night , Rachel gave me the letter yesterday afternoon , Kai Ling called me at 12 a.m. and the NNC gave me an ' explosive ' surprise in class. It freaked me out but never mind. I'm over the moon (:
Happy Sweet Seventeen.
Finally seventeen , good old Jean. It feels , I don't know. I don't feel a thing. It's my birthday but I'm not feeling anything. Am I experiencing PMS or something? Frankly speaking , I don't have the birthday mood. I had it last night , but not on the actual day.
Maybe my actual bday is on 1st but the nurse got mixed up with dates X)
But I'm grateful for the little things my family and friends have done for me. Just a big thank you , everyone :)
Thank God too , for He allowed me to live by another year.
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| XL chocolate indulgence cake |
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| Blowing out candles |
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| a letter by Rachel |
Happy Sweet Seventeen.
Monday, July 1, 2013
Flashbacks.
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| Like a firework , scattering sparks in the vacant sky |
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| How we share laughter out of nothing |
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| Of the wacky things we do |
| Dreams we have all along |
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| How we believe in love despite heartbreaks |
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| Those fantasies in our heads |
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| Just us sticking together till the end |
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| Being bold and invincible like a boss |
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| Life brought us together and separated us in the end |
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| Yes , we will be. |
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