I don't feel pleasant nowadays...

It was only just a dream

When I was younger (literally a younger teen cz I had no idea what is an ambition when I was a child) , I had dreams of becoming a forensic scientist or maybe a forensic pathologist.  It's pretty obvious that I was influenced by CSI nyahahaha. As I grow older , I realized that these two ambitions could not happen because I don't like Biology , and dealing with dead people is kinda creepy. Back then , I thought dealing with corpses was cool.

What's with the sudden change actually?  I don't know, I thought I was kinda childish last time . Now I have a feeling that I could think in a more matured way , considering all the factors and priorities when I make a decision. 

Thus , my past ambitions can be considered a dream. A dream that could never be compatible with reality.

Puberty? Nahh. It's just that im starting to take my life seriously. Who doesn't want a bright future ?

To be honest , I am still kinda lost with what I wanna be in the long run. Many are fast in deciding,  yet im still in doubt. Time doesn't wait for me , I need to pace up . Its kinda sad that I still couldn't figure out who I really am in the inside. Pretty confusing.

I know that I couldn't wait for long. This is a challenge and I decided to muster up my courage to overcome it. Just do it like what Nike said. Dash forward .

No , no more regrets. I have chosen this path , and I will go with it till the end .

Be brave.

No, it's not.

Sometimes things don't look as simple as they seem,

Even if they assure you that everything's gonna be fine.

How are things going to be alright ,

If they turn out to be unexpected ?

Prior to trouble , there's hope ,

When there's hope , nothing is to be worried anymore.

Are you sure ?

When you reach that depth ,

You will start to feel like you're being sucked into a vortex of darkness,

Filled with doubts and dilemmas.

No matter how much you struggle,

No , you're not going back to stage 1.

You're stuck.

It seemed easy at first ,

But not when you reached the peak.

You either choose to fall backwards or go downhill ,

And it's not even a choice , you'll die in both ways.

No , it's not simple at all.

It's complex. 

How I wish I could.