Fret

Growing up as an ordinary human being in an ordinary human in a small town , I've always wondered why people like to worry a lot about problems that don't seem to be significant to me. People can just wail about their fashion disasters , cry over heartbreaks , fret when they couldn't get tickets to watch their idols' performances and etc.

To be honest , I don't give a damm about these matters. Yes , I have not experienced these over-exaggerated problems and I have no right to question or to mock anyone about their priorities . One question , have they experienced something worse like death ?

The reason why I don't see their problems as a big deal because I myself had gone through hardships, despite being barely 19. To be more precise , I am facing a life obstacle right now. No , it's not death , it's just something that struck me all of a sudden.

Surprise , surprise.

I wouldn't reveal what happened because it's something personal and related to my family. It's pretty critical , and I'm currently in
the darkest period of my life. Put academics aside , I now have another issue to worry about .

As an odd person whose tear ducts are inactive , I actually broke down. I was at the verge of breaking down the past few days with the pressure I'm getting from my upcoming examination and with this sudden outbreak , I now have the reason to cry like a normal girl. 15 minutes later , I decided to pretend nothing's going on. That's how I taught myself to be strong with the difficulty still lingering around.

When times are hard , one doesn't simply give up. I'm now contemplating whether to do so , but no one can really lift me off the ground except for myself. The amount of responsibilities I have to bear at the age of almost 19 , are comparable to the amount of fun people of the same age are having. Tell me , how can I not be weird?

If you make a big deal out of petty issues like relationships at a young age, inability to buy the latest brands , betrayal by unworthy friends , failure to get A's in all subjects - just pause. Look around you , there is something better to be worried about. Global issues like poverty , injustice , discrimination , human rights , education need attention from everyone. Your dearest family and your closest friends require you to be concerned about them. Do not waste your time and effort to fret over something that might not even play a significant role in your life. If you feel like leaving your past , abandon it because there is a reason why it's called the past. Most importantly , spend some quality time alone. It's the best way to fathom yourself and give yourself a peace of mind.

Fret no more because what I'm going through could be worse off.

People might just perceive it's because of A Level. Whatever. 

I hope things will get better. 

Kthnxbai.

I wish I have someone to talk to right now.