I've been in college for 2 months now , and I learn that insufficient sleep is definitely normal. I'm literally used to going to bed late now , although it's kinda unhealthy and my pimples threaten to pop out. If I'm not used to it , I would be asleep right now instead of blogging lol.
I can't blame myself or anyone or anything for the sleep crisis. It just comes naturally , like that. I half-expected it before I entered college , and in the end it turns out to be far worse than I expected. There was once when I had to stay up till 3 am just to complete my maths homework.
Life of a maths student....
The reason why I can't put the blame on any party or anything is because I'm a further maths kid , or in general , a maths student. I have to complete the whole maths syllabus in the first semester before proceeding with further maths , which is labelled as a killer subject , the next semester.
And why am I complaining here ? I shouldn't be complaining , I -
Allow me to rant for once. I have no other choice but to bear with it.
1.5 years. Fck.
Let's put academics aside.
Frankly speaking , the bond among my fellow classmates isn't as strong as other classes. Oh how I envy them. Two months have passed and my classmates are like strangers to me o.o I did mix around with the girls but the guys are like self-absorbed ? They're not anti-social nor they're hard to get along with but they just prefer to like , y'know , hang out with their own friends - people of the same gender.
Are they -- never mind.
I wonder if my class is going to be in this state till A levels is over. Maybe there'll be a change. Maybe.
I've been having mood swings lately and I seriously don't know how to overcome them. I get pissed off easily and sometimes I would be on the verge of pissing people off. Gosh I'm such a dangerous person. Well I can't say that there's no reason to my sudden change of mood - I do have one...
Clashes of ideas ? Yeah , something like that. It sucks when you have no choice but to disagree with someone else's opinions because you find them terrible. Horrible. Insensible. However , you can't just scream at the person as you barely know the person and you have to cooperate with the person for quite a long time. Well , shit. You want to argue with the person so badly that you end up having a volcano ready to explode any time in yourself instead of reasoning with the person and telling him/her in the face that his/her argument is fcking invalid. So fcking invalid that Mother Earth loses gravity. That's what I'm experiencing right now. It's not that I'm being cowardly to voice out my inner thoughts but I seriously don't wanna hurt anyone before becoming close to them. I can be very mean and my words can be sharp :/
However , the person I'm not satisfied with is definitely not an ordinary person. He has shown the traits of a male chauvinist. And I personally hate this type of guys. Uh-oh.
As to fulfil my promise to my friend, I'm now trying my very best not to get pissed with people so easily. So Mr Alpha , I shall cancel my initial plan to have a one-to-one battle with you. Fingers crossed that you don't mess with me again , or else I'll declare war and put the world in chaos.
Kthnxbai.
Cheers to a great September ! (:
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