So I'm doing a lil update on le blog while retrieving files needed for my video project.
I can't label this project as tiring because it has shown me how the film-making crew work on set. It's definitely not as easy as it seems , so kudos to film makers out there . (Y)
I'm such an emotional freak. Not the type that cries easily , but the type that feels bothered inside.
Most of my friends have that typical sixth sense , but I don't. Are the barriers around me too thick? I have defended myself very well that nobody could actually enter my space.
Maybe I should let it go ?
No one could fathom me really well except for myself. I'm such an introvert. Being too defensive over myself could be so hurtful sometimes. Words , as sharp as needle ; thoughts , as deep as the ocean . I do ignore stuffs people say , thoughts about me or things that hurt , but the fragile side of me couldn't hold any longer when that particular confusion comes swirling in my head.
I am not as strong as what they think.
I should just let my heart out instead of burying those thoughts deep within. I feel insecure , really. My confidence is tumbling down day by day. Is this inner war ?
Let bygones be bygones ? Nope. I should stop being a goddamn coward and start learning from the past mistakes I made. Life's so imperfect so I guess I should stop blaming myself for all the failures and conflicts.
Yes , I can do it with God's will.
Laugh all the troubles away , regardless the tears that may roll . Cherish every second that's worth remembering. Love the ones who love you back , not fake scumbags . Pretend we've never met or talked before - let's be strangers again.
No , I'm not gonna be emo-ing over you . I'll look like a wimp doing that .
:) I feel good.
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